Hi everyone,
I am new to this whole blogger thing. But I really wanted to be able to write down thoughts that many of you are thinking and can relate to.
The reason for my title is this: For the last several years I have felt that life was passing me by and all I thought about was what I should be doing to make my life better... in the future. Just recently I have figured out that I wasn't living in the present. Believe me, I am nowhere near the safety zone, and sometimes still feel like I'm teetering on the edge. With all the commitments in our lives these days its hard not to feel it. There are some things that will definitely have me look down over the edge of the cliff. When my kids are sick, it really can be anything, a cold, a rash, or a fever. I think it is because of Eddie being so premature and having the health problems that he did when he was born. Still send me into a tizzy. Another thing is disrespect. This is not an easy thing to tolerate with a 13 year old and a 10 (going on 16) year old. But it is getting better around here.
I've learned from my new boss (more about the new job in a minute) that "nothing is an emergency" and I add "unless your kids or family is sick". But I was creating emergencies out of things that should just be left alone.
Now about my job. I have several hats to wear but the one that has helped me find my inner peace with life is working at a small scrapbook store. I feel I am contributing to the happiness of others by helping them fulfill their lifelong wish of making the best scrapbook ever, and I get to converse with adults (big words are used), and generally come home happy.
I don't know, maybe it's because I'm getting older and somewhat wiser, or maybe because I can't sweat the small crap anymore(weight, money, clean house, disorganization) or I'll shorten my lifespan, or maybe I just finally figured out to enjoy the present, I'm on a little more solid ground.
